8. 12:30 p.m. - 1:00 p.m.

"Think of the things you were passionate about in your youth. What happened to them? You wanted to write a novel. You wanted to travel the world. You wanted your future to be special. All you've done is master the Kama Sutra."

He was poking fun, but it still hurt. Laur glared, wondering why I didn't call him on it. I'm convinced that women don't understand the relationships that men have. How they're often built on animosity.

"When I fight with someone, it's for a reason. If it gets ugly, that's it. Time doesn't heal all wounds. No one has earned my permanent smile."º

"Not even me?"

"Not even you."

She was right not to trust me. Though I believed in my heart that I was promiscuous only in action not in intent,º what difference did it make. A person who would trade the concreteness of emotion for the transience of tactility is lost. There's a trust, a bond, and once broken--well, divorce is a shared humilty felt by all.º At the same time, when the opportunity arose, the exit was the hard sell to me.

Was it just the covering up that made it bad? No. I've always thought that people in "open" relationships had the most closed relationships of anyone I knew.

Laur once told me "I've never cheated on anyone and I've never not been cheated on. Temptation is always there. When it gets too large, I walk. Only a coward stays when things fade."

"Women cheat, too."

"Yeah, but only men try to rationalize it."

"I don't think that's true."

"See."

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